tuesday's nite....

hmm...well today i just have my 1st orientation class...kinda briefing more than a orientation..the actual orientation is on this Saturday..but not really want to go for it cause kinda bored and well u know full of those people....( non-Chinese)..sad T-T
hiaz...but what can i do just accept...and today just know few friend..but their ID still an unknown to me...hmm...but what ever..and tomorrow got assignment that must finish at class if not...will be deduct assignment mark...and those other day...i mean past..just like that bored and doing work...and continue study...oh ya today i go to work early for overtime..and we got threat some food and coffee by our outlet head (Samantha)...and nothing else and jenny also been call me for let me know some of her's problem....well...that all ...and wanna to buy a new computer...that all..end.

1st day at school...

hmm..today jz start my new college life but already make me feel up sad....why? The student is kinda well u know....like dummy....the teacher teach us what is mouse...what is alt key etc....sort of primary school...sad T-T....what i do jz can sms...sleep and pretend to look serious..hiaz...whole class jz 2 Chinese people.....one is me and the other also been transfer to other class....now i jz the only chinese left in the class...but luckily...the crazy people that sit beside me also been transfer...that is more better...but any how i will try to comfort myself...what can i do..i wanna go kl to study but can't...nvm jz try to hold on ....LOL....

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hmm...kinda long time not writting this thing...well life is busy...(er.. will it be?) Oh ya i will study soon at cosmopint college at kk...so pathetic...so what ever...and today..let see---jz now go to k box with one friend and then go to window shopping and the friend got problem and keep touchering me by her problem...what the...and now i am online what a bored life....Oh well..it also need to going on right? hmm...oh ya recently i got steamboat with sara ,vivian ,celina so and so...it happen at wednesday..(2/4/2008)...it for celebrate celina belated b'day....at vivian house..well it kinda fun...but i kinda rush so not stay till the end...and yesterday i also go for steamboat with old school mate...er...got xi tze, ham zhuang, jennet, bo lo, and me ...well also quite fun...( i really often go for steamboat...111-_-) hmmm..and the specific of college strating is next wed ( 9/4) kinda nervous...haha...after all jz another school reopen...jz relax...hehe..but still some problem is bothering on my mind...that is how to get a laptop...i will try to ask my brother whether he can help me or not... ;P jz stop worrying....hahah...ok that all for that...will be more to coming ...chao~~

life....

life..a very horrifying and exciting word...for me life is kinda...hmm..how should i describe...is lonely and hypocrite...maybe i think the one that beside you is very trust able and he or she is a good even best friend, relative, sibling or whatever...that just a lie..don't believe it..don't listen that voice...the trust able are yourself and your parent..but i am the only still left so i just believe in myself...why?? why i will think this way...sound not too optimist right? and very negative right? at the first place i also think the way most of the people think of...but when something happened that let me see the truth...this world is very cruel...life is nothing just a crap...why? because the people i think can be trust able turning back to me....and all the responsibility i had to carried even i do so much...so when someone call u do something even you thing that the closest to you...you must have prepare the existent of trouble that might coming looking for you...life is like that...who you can talk to? maybe only just the one who had bring you to this world---your parent...but you are the similar situation like me that without parent...you should face it yourself when trouble come to you...no one u can trust....some even your own parent...i too tired of this life...i might want to let go and rest in peace...i really tired...i can't handle more...my head is ticking bomb..will boom any time...i won't be a coo coo person at the end...i rather end this life...

so any one had any comment don't ...PLEASE DON'T USE PHONE CONTACT AND LET ME KNOW...just leave message here or my friendster if u know....if not i might die faster..thank

cloth's day....

wowo...i use up to 300 for to CLOTH...Chinese new year...need to use so much....today i with Sara...going buy at Padini...Bleno...and many many....and now at starbuck having online....later will go movie too...oh ...kinda tired but already satisfied....later...dono going where..i mean after movie....nvm that all ....fun day...and sick oo...

hell day

Today jz a bad for me....i dono why...i jz wan to have nice and peace day to shop for my chinese new year cloth...but i think i choose the wrong day...all of them jz making fool of my feeling...but they still like dono ...and i still need to entertain them...hmm..maybe i should be alone...what worst day..after the shopping incident...and came out the cinema problem... i need peacefull nite to having my dinner...but why i so stupid give her a msg...and have to do her favor...and she fooling me again....why life keeping me like stupid and clown look? what a day....jz keeping my tempere up...make my feeling down...people like to hurt my feeling and go away..not even giving any mercy....but why they seem like dono know and jz gone....hmm..friend hard to find a good one....dono some day i can find a friend that truly can call them "friend"...what can i do...that my life...

me...

Hmm...i dono why..have the feel to write this thing...maybe nothing to do...today i din do anything big..jz company some girl to shop for her dress to her dinner...wow..that really make my day up and down..at the 1st thought can also can survay my cloth too...but no~!...she is very ANNOYING~!~!!~this dress not her choice la...and..this and that...and from that moment i dun have any mood to company her...but i can't leave her coz she was alone and is a girl~ that the problem...not jz that...she also make me late to work...chick...really a problem maker..hell why she keep bothering me? nvm...that all already pass...now talk about me..this few week my body very weak...i dono why and the migrain keep chasing me....can any one give some solution out of this problem?! that si not enough..i can't sleep well that is a big problem...when i close my eyes than many thing keep pop up in my mind...not i think too much...jz is come naturally...and continuely..GOD~! CAN MY LIFE GET ANY BETTER?!...why dun jz kill me and need to make me suffer....in my life nothing is going well...is NOTHING ...about i gonna move out from my aunt place also the same...keep many problem poping out...bla bla bla...i hate my life...

life...do u know what is life...if u know let me know the anwser..i really dono...