life....

life..a very horrifying and exciting word...for me life is kinda...hmm..how should i describe...is lonely and hypocrite...maybe i think the one that beside you is very trust able and he or she is a good even best friend, relative, sibling or whatever...that just a lie..don't believe it..don't listen that voice...the trust able are yourself and your parent..but i am the only still left so i just believe in myself...why?? why i will think this way...sound not too optimist right? and very negative right? at the first place i also think the way most of the people think of...but when something happened that let me see the truth...this world is very cruel...life is nothing just a crap...why? because the people i think can be trust able turning back to me....and all the responsibility i had to carried even i do so much...so when someone call u do something even you thing that the closest to you...you must have prepare the existent of trouble that might coming looking for you...life is like that...who you can talk to? maybe only just the one who had bring you to this world---your parent...but you are the similar situation like me that without parent...you should face it yourself when trouble come to you...no one u can trust....some even your own parent...i too tired of this life...i might want to let go and rest in peace...i really tired...i can't handle more...my head is ticking bomb..will boom any time...i won't be a coo coo person at the end...i rather end this life...

so any one had any comment don't ...PLEASE DON'T USE PHONE CONTACT AND LET ME KNOW...just leave message here or my friendster if u know....if not i might die faster..thank

cloth's day....

wowo...i use up to 300 for to CLOTH...Chinese new year...need to use so much....today i with Sara...going buy at Padini...Bleno...and many many....and now at starbuck having online....later will go movie too...oh ...kinda tired but already satisfied....later...dono going where..i mean after movie....nvm that all ....fun day...and sick oo...

hell day

Today jz a bad for me....i dono why...i jz wan to have nice and peace day to shop for my chinese new year cloth...but i think i choose the wrong day...all of them jz making fool of my feeling...but they still like dono ...and i still need to entertain them...hmm..maybe i should be alone...what worst day..after the shopping incident...and came out the cinema problem... i need peacefull nite to having my dinner...but why i so stupid give her a msg...and have to do her favor...and she fooling me again....why life keeping me like stupid and clown look? what a day....jz keeping my tempere up...make my feeling down...people like to hurt my feeling and go away..not even giving any mercy....but why they seem like dono know and jz gone....hmm..friend hard to find a good one....dono some day i can find a friend that truly can call them "friend"...what can i do...that my life...

me...

Hmm...i dono why..have the feel to write this thing...maybe nothing to do...today i din do anything big..jz company some girl to shop for her dress to her dinner...wow..that really make my day up and down..at the 1st thought can also can survay my cloth too...but no~!...she is very ANNOYING~!~!!~this dress not her choice la...and..this and that...and from that moment i dun have any mood to company her...but i can't leave her coz she was alone and is a girl~ that the problem...not jz that...she also make me late to work...chick...really a problem maker..hell why she keep bothering me? nvm...that all already pass...now talk about me..this few week my body very weak...i dono why and the migrain keep chasing me....can any one give some solution out of this problem?! that si not enough..i can't sleep well that is a big problem...when i close my eyes than many thing keep pop up in my mind...not i think too much...jz is come naturally...and continuely..GOD~! CAN MY LIFE GET ANY BETTER?!...why dun jz kill me and need to make me suffer....in my life nothing is going well...is NOTHING ...about i gonna move out from my aunt place also the same...keep many problem poping out...bla bla bla...i hate my life...

life...do u know what is life...if u know let me know the anwser..i really dono...

my new blog?

Er...this is my new blog..and dno what to say jz...very bored and create this blog...and now i at cc alone...ok...jz one thing BORED~!